This Might Be A Very Very Very Personal Statement

I learn English since primary school. Textbooks are not working for me. I learn by singing and watching Hollywood movies. I might be the most typical girl who happened to live in the Third World country, adoring Johnny Depp & Lady Gaga, following every single episode of Glee, and thanking Google Translate every time I found difficult words. I thought I’ve enough enriching vocabularies in my brain by doing that. But oh I still have flaws in speaking and writing! Even while I’m writing this piece, I read ‘Guidance to Write a Success Personal Statement’ book. Though most of my days I spent by tweeting and blogging to enhance my writing skills, but hell I have no reader. Nobody is willing to be grammarian, unless they’re paid to. Then I decided to write anything whatever sentences that first come to mind, struggling against my grammar phobia. On the other hand, I need to sharpen my speaking skills. One day I joined Toastmasters club in my campus. The club aims for good. It is devoted to develop local communities in public speaking and leadership skills. I’ve completed the Leadership Track but failed in the Communication. I knew it since the first time I got there, half of the members are lecturers, and they’re all professors! My legs were already broke when they asked me to come forward and deliver my speech. Apparently I haven’t found the courage yet to overcome this anxiety.

I’m certain the best way to master English is to get fully involved in the English language country. By participating in IELSP program, obviously I shall interact with the American folks, and by interacting, I mean I shall foster my English as well. This is a great chance for people who always wanted to experience what it feels like living in United States, people like me! This is the most wanted scholarship. I know there are zillions of applicants out there nailing their dreams on this opportunity. It seems, when this moment of consciousness come, I’m afraid my application will be just ended in paper shredder. But what’s the point of living when I give up so easily? If I fail, I could, of course, wait for the next chance, and while waiting, I could read old copies of People and watch Grey’s Anatomy without subtitles.

Sometimes it is much easier to fantasize the future rather than taking a real step on it. My vision is to be an anchorwoman on VOA. It’s a challenging yet needed extra guts to achieve it. I always imagine myself in front of the cameras, presenting breaking news or a culinary section. My parents won’t be worried because they can see me from the telly. I think I’m already stepping on the crossroads. Whichever direction I take will lead me to my destiny. This program is a signboard pointing at my destination. I don’t know whether the road is going to be rocky or slippery, but this is going to be a fascinating journey worth to try.